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Scor
12th Nov 1988

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Get Married at age 21
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Thursday, November 23, 2006
11/23/2006 11:11:00 am

i am alone in the library using com. its break time now. i chose to be alone. needed sometime to heal myself. needed sometime to be alone. to prevent myself from been hurt.
skipped the first lesson for today. wanted to skip the whole day. but in the end i still drag myself to school becos of ma2.
tml going clubbing around esplanade area. dunno if i am able to practise any self discipline tml. really have the urge to let myself got dead drunk and stop thinking of anything. not even have any dreams or nightmare about it. but there are still consequences for me to think about if i really let myself got drunk. wanted so much to drink tml. but i am afraid once i start i can't stop. a bit lost. i am afriad i would lost the self discipline i once had. the principles i once had. the change in me.

someone is suppose to bring me go clubbing. but tat someone is gone. disappear into thin air. i have absolutely no idea where tat someone has gone too. and its time for me to move on and stop waiting for tat someone. true enough tat someone has added colours to my life. now that someone has gone my life went back to black and white. no i am not gonna let my life remain so. i am gonna add colours to my life myself. but through the process of adding i got more hurt. no matter wat i do where i go i see shadows of that someone. things tat we have done and also things that we have agree to do. i am still cherishing some hope in u. but i know eventually in return of the hope it would be disappointment.
it is so hard to find a true friend in life, yet it is so easy to lose ur true friend. i have found you as my ture friend and i have lost u too. took me 18 years to find my first true friend in life. but it only took me a week to realise i have lost u.
seriously i dunno wat has happen. friends told me to stop waiting and just move on. told me guys are like tat. but i refuse to believe u are someone like this. all the days i have spent with u. u doesn't seems like someone so "irresponsible" or "corward". u seem to be someone mature and sensible. and know how to handle situation. u doesn't seems to me tat u are someone who u are behaving right now. playing disappearing act. has something really happen to u? i think i would rather pray hard tat u just dun wanna be my friend anymore rather than u having any mishaps.
please dun aviod me anymore. just give me an explanation. or a simple answer. for all the guessing is really killing me. i dun want it to remain a mystery for me for the rest of my life. guessing and guessing for the rest of my life. dun wanna call there cos not sure if u will get into any trouble if i call there.


i am still waiting for ur reply....

give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore