Saturday, May 13, 2006

give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore

today is another sucky day for me. i was awaken by the super loud drilling noise. early in the morning got pissed off le. sian. so i wake up to get perpared to got each tuition. but i sort of overslept. sms my student to postponed the tuition to 1:30pm instead. not enough sleep cause me to be in bad mood. i was so sleepy. couldn't concentrate at all during the tuition session. and that got me further pissed off and stressed up with myself again. feel i am very stupid. such a simple question oso cannot do. and thanks eugene for helping me to solve it. u interested to teach her? cos i am very stress up with teaching tuition le.
after tuition i still have two unsolved questions. one solved le. the other one haven't. but my mind wasn't on the two questions though. it was on the other issue i had.....
went to shop alone again. took my watch to service. the salesgirl said must wait three weeks. that is sooooo long lor. until then i have no watch to wear le bah. my fossil watch spoil le. but i lost the gurantee soon after i bought the watch. so cannot bring it to service. then my swatch watch i only wear it occasionally. dun wear it to school one. cos i scare spoil. just now wanted to go and have a look at those 10 dollars watch one. but no mood leh. so didn't hang around long. and i recently very budget oso mah. later see things cannot buy will only pissed myself more.
so i came home. no one at home. alone again. usual thing and i used to it le. but actually alone is better. no need entertain anyone. so i continue with my moody feeling and sulk. went to the freezer and took an ice-cream to eat to calm myself down. came online. realise my whole fish tank all die le. cos i forget to set to pause. blur me.
then go around asking ppl how to solve the maths question. eugene help me solve it. ring my student up and explain to her.
i now like zombie like that. doing things but my heart is not there. i am still pondering about stuff that happen. so vexed!!!!!
hope these days will passed faster. i am so tired le lor. when will it go away? i am so pissed. pissed with everything. things that i would normally laugh it off or dun care about it. but recently will get pissed over such small things. start to question myself again. going crazy soon le lah!! maybe crying out would be better but i feel no tears leh. last month cry too much. tears used up le. hah.
today is the voting day. i am eager to know the results. hope that pontong pasir and hougang will not change their mps. still remain as opposition party "territory". i always believe in improvements when there are competition. so although i am not supporters of opposition or anti-PAP, i hope the two area will still remain as it is.
it is a saturday and so sian. trap at home. nothing to do and nothing to watch. cannot go shop for broke le. need to save up for study tour and shop during study tour.
not that i am the very shopping type of ppl. but i like to go on a dolphins hunt. girls shop for clothes but i shop for dolphins. hah. so weird right.
yeah i know i am a very weird person. this one i dun need reassuarance.

i maybe going for duty on tuesday bah. cos he replace for this week sunday. that means one week he go twice. like that very tiring for him. so i better go do duty on tuesday. but then hor i miss doing duty with nesh leh. doing duty with nesh is fun lor. even it is at arrival. and nesh not going on tuesday lor. that means very sian. arrival no pax if not will be fun too. see so boirng. no nesh or no pax means no fun. i go le oso very boring. must paste the fake smile on then stone. wah. very tiring leh. better think carefully to go or not to go. however the 10 dollars attract me to go there stand and stone leh. i need to save for my study tour. hah.
not bad today bad mood type a very long post. think can sign off le. go update my the other cropped up blog. hah. com down. and i am oso down.