Saturday, October 28, 2006
10/28/2006 09:16:00 am
yesterday morning i wake up feeling extremely tire. not really tire la. just tat i have no energy to do things. just feel very lazy. so i just skip the morning lecture.went for the next tutorial. the tutor now know how to pronounce my surname le. hee hee. and he emphasis also. hee hee. said something like this surname can't forget le. cos kanna "scold". hee hee. so funny. well then after the tutorial ends went for my break. then its gem. gems was at t12a. was hanging around with li juan. she bought a watch from the bazzar. i wanted to buy one too. but haiz. no money. so got to give up on tat. hee hee.then we went for ours gems. for gems i had to type a resume again.haiz. big headache. finally a lesson of hers tat ends early. hee hee. she always ends her lesson on the dot if not the most 5 mins before. pass by the watch store then saw the whole gang sitting there. dunno for wat. went to find li juan. then we went to school of businees. on the way back saw someone tat i dun really wanna see. so i walk off quickly. ps to leave li juan behind. went straight to the library to look for the butterfly effect. couldn't find it. in the end borrow the corrs borrowed heaven and the backstreet boys album. went up for fmkt. as per normal. log in to com and watch keroro. hee hee. but i did do a bit of hw though. hee hee. lesson ends early. after that went vivo.
hang around. saw those yellow clothing man zooming around in tat machine. dunno wat u call tat though. hee hee. seems so fun. hee hee. how i wish i was them though. zooming around in that things acting happy in front of everyone. try to make everyone's day. hee hee. it would be fun. hee hee. yes i know its tiring too. hee hee. walk a bit around vivo. sit outside and talk. didn't talk much but i think a lot. a lot of things went through my head. well wat to do. i am a thinker. hee hee. went home for dinner. was very tired. looking at the keychain my friend gave me yesterday. transfer it from my pencil case to my house keys. hee hee. my pencil case really full house le. so transfer it to my house keys one. hee hee. my pencil case already got 2 dolphins soft toy, one is the pink dolphin keychain while the other one is handsewn but not really a keychain, and one friendship band. hee hee. so right now it is hanging on my keys. hee hee. like it a lot. THANK YOU! i was actually quite surprise when my friend gave it to me. didn't expect tat friend of mine to give anything yesterday. hee hee. i really like it. hee hee. though i didn't tell u tat and sorry if i forget to thank you yesterday. hee hee. cos i was quite surprise so didn't really know how to react. hee hee. hee hee. gonna cherish it. hee hee. the second present tat i receive from a friend tat has my name on it. hee hee. the third keychains i receive from a friend this year. hee hee. i was too tire. slept at around 10 pm.
today went to teach tuition. something happen. not worth mentioning though. hee hee. after tat went to meet a friend. talk again. didn't talk much but again i think a lot. hee hee. things tat my friend says does strike me at times. hee hee. then later took train to city hall. walk to suntec. saw a guy with funny hair colour. hee hee. got home at around 5. shower then have my first meal of the day. hee hee. gonna finish watching keroro later bah. then do all the assignment summary. having a headach now. somehow these few days i am just not myself. very not myself. think i am falling sick soon. sick in the mind cos me to be sick in the body. so tire. too tire. no matter wat i do i just feel tire. sick and tire.
on my way back saw a guy and a girl on the bus. the girl was sobbing. the guy seems uneasy. he open a packet of tissue and pass it to her. they didn't really look like a couple. he saw me looking at him. he looks paiseh. i try to pretend tat i am looking at my watch for the time. he must have been thinking tat i tot he was the one who make her cry. hee hee. but no. i do not think tat way. i tot they were not a couple. and the girl was crying due to some other things. and the guy was been nice to be there for the girl. but soon i realise they are a couple when i saw the guy putting his hand on the girl's leg. for goodness sake. since u are her boyfriend just let her cry on your shoulder la. so dotss... haiz. youngster who are not of age to go dating and do not know how to treat the girl but still wanna go dating.
you do not love someone for the sake of loving.
you love someone for the feeling is there.
you do not love her for she love you.
you love her for who she is.
you do not love someone for that person is always around you.
you love someone who you really love.
you do not love someone for she or he fits your criteria.
you love someone with no reasons and no explanations.
you do not woo someone for the outer beauty.
you woo someone for the inner beauty.
you do not woo someone for the sake of wooing.
you woo someone for you really wanna be with her.
you do not woo her for you want her.
you woo her for you know you will protect her and will not hurt her.
you do not woo her for she confess she love you.
you woo her for you love her for who she is.
you do not say you love her for the sake of saying.
you say you love her when you mean it and you cherish her.
you do not make the one you love cry.
you make the one you love touch to tears.
you do not patch back for the sake of patching back.
you patch back for there are still "unfinished business".
you do not patch back for others tells you to.
you patch back for you two break up due to sabotage of others.
you do not patch back as one of the party request for it.
you patch back for the two of you still have feelings for each other.
you do not hate someone for the sake of hating.
you hate someone for who she or he is.
you do not hate someone for she or he dump you.
you hate someone for she or he commit a sin.
if you are prepare to love someone and prepare to get into a relationship be prepare to be hurt.
the two of you may be the most loving couples in the whole wide world, but it would still hurt. sooner or later you will be hurt by the relationship.
the more you try not to hurt each other the more you are hurting each other.
there is no perfect man in this world.
there is no perfect woman in this world.
you only become perfect when someone is madly in love with you.
in the eyes of a couple that is madly in love, their the other half is always perfect.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Thursday, October 26, 2006
10/26/2006 05:48:00 pm
just got back home. today school was ok. as per normal. school ends and it was raining. li juan ask me if i wanna go far east plaza. i tot for a while then just go with her lor. hee hee. so we took bus 105 to far east plaza. caught in the drizzle for a short while. almost fell down. hee hee. the floor was wet and i wasn't paying attention. hee hee. i slip but didn't fell. hee hee. i have huge body mass so still quite stable though i slip. hee hee. so went over to far east. i was looking for the shoe shop tat i bought my imf shoes from. hee hee. but somehow didn't manage to find at first. so went to level 1 and shop arouund. li juan wanted to buy a pair of black shoes. so we just shop around looking for black shoes and occassionally formal wear. hee hee. we pass by the shop. hee hee. long time didn't eat le. hee hee. so i bought one. hee hee. the price gone up liao. used to be 3 dollars for one but now is 3.20 for one. hee hee. but the serving was quite big so its ok. but i overspend again. haiz. we walk around level 1 then level 2 then level three. i went back to level 4 and look for the shoe shop again. finally i found it. hee hee. my eyes must have stamped sia. actually pass by the shop more than once liao but somehow didn't see it. hee hee. so went into the shop and look around. was helping li juan to find her black shoes. in the end find one pair for her. wanted to buy the same pair as her but due to my big foot, can't. i bought another pair of shoes. with a bit of heels. looks almost the same as my imf shoes just tat this pair is totally cover up one. hee hee. after that we went home liao. thinking if i wanna write a complimentary letter about the sales girl for my gems assignment. hee hee. but the service provided was only ok leh. hee hee.`
on the bus home i think a lot. well its time for me to change my image liao. hee hee. 女大十八变. hee hee. i am going to learn to accept the fact that i am a girl. hee hee. gonna dress more like a teenage girl. gonna be more like a girl. not gonna be so man anymore. hee hee. just gonna change my dressing and all. well after all in life u can't stay the way u are forever. the age of 18 means i have reach another stage of my life. i gonna change my wardrode. hee hee. but although i wanna change it i need money. hee hee. gonna take up jobs to support my change. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
10/25/2006 09:45:00 am
well yesterday went to east coast park. met up with emily and li juan. we just walk and walk. hee hee. li juan kanna sun burnt while me only my cheeks area. my back giving my problems again. felt stiff at the right part of my lower part. dunno wat happen also. long time dun have such problems liao. yesterday suddenly came back. today giving me problems also. hee hee. well i will learn to get use to it. hee hee. its not too painful but it feels stiff tats all. hee hee.
i am feeling something weird. but i shall not talk about it. well the feeling is something tat would strike me occassionally but i will get over it one. hee hee. just waiting for the right timing to let go and block out the feelings. hee hee. dun wanna be hurt or suffer by such feelings anymore. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
10/24/2006 09:56:00 am
hee hee. finally i know what are the two buildings le. hee hee. someone promises to help me find the building if not will walk to the building with me. but as per normal, the promise is broken and would never be fulfiled. doubt he ever remember wat promises he has made to me. hee hee. but nvm.
yesterday met up with my friend and we had a walk to see the raining tree. hee hee. the raining tree has just rained before we were there. so ya. no luck in seeing the tree rain. hee hee. then we continue to walk lor. saw one of the building. hee hee. now i know it's next to high street plaza. heee hee. then we further walk some more. went into funan it mall and get a cold drink. hee hee. prevent myself from getting heat stroke. hee hee. dunno y yesterday seems fatigue and like going to get heat stroke any moment. hee hee. then after we got the drink we further walk down somemore. hee hee. and somehow we lost sight of my second building. so in the end we walk up the hill to see if we are able to see the building or not. the hill is not tall and not steep at all. lol. even me this auntie can climb lor. hee hee. dunno y got guys kanna leg cramp from walking up the hill. hee hee. i am not talking about my friend. my friend is as on as me when it comes to walking. hee hee. so we got onto the suppose peak of the hill. hee hee. saw the building. try to locate where it is. hee hee. then we go down the hill liao once we locate the building. hee hee. went into the stamp museum for a while to have a look. hee hee. sadly it's raining. hee hee. so we in the end we walk in the wrong direction. hee hee. we walk away from the building. hee hee. we went to look for shelter. hee hee. so in end we walk to esplanade again and chill there. hee heee. we saw the peter chen. hee hee. taking photos of his own poster. hee hee. saw him carrying the same bag as my brother. hee hee. think we sat down there for a long time. hee hee. some very funny things happen. hee hee. almost injured my friend's thumb and injure my back. heehee. this is wat would happen when two very stubborn person starts to "fight". hee hee. then later we remember that we haven't look for our second building. so we continue with our search again to look for our next building. hee hee. quite a long walk though. walk to some part of singapore tat i doubt i have really set my foot there before. hee hee. and we finally found the building. hee hee. the building was basically an office tower. hee hee. then we walk back to city hall from there. hee hee. and along the way i was tire le. hee hee. so in the end i fall in love with my friend's bag. hee hee. i feel as if i was dating with the bag sia. hee hee. omg i fall in love with a bag. hee hee. after falling in love with a skinny snowman at vivo i now fall in love with my friend's bag. hee hee.
on our way back to city hall we pass by a lot of bars and pubs. hee hee. had a sudden urge to drink. hee hee. my friend ask me to drink tiger beer instead. so dots.... my friend been a lamer says tat tiger beer is a western herbal tea. lol. forget to tell him tat tiger beer is a local brand. hee hee. but i think my friend is trying to say tat beer is western herbal tea bah. hee hee. couldn't really remember for i was falling head over heels with the bag. hee hee.
my friend walk me to my bus stop again. hee hee. so i have more time to spend with the bag. hee hee. think my friend shoulder must be aching le. hee hee. poor fellow. hee hee. always kanna torture by me whenever we go out. hee hee. i wonder when my friend's patient with me will ever run out? one of my rare friends who actually does all these no life things with me. hee hee.
well i really enjoy my day yesterday. LOL. i still find it very funny when i think of all the funny things tat happen yesterday. hee hee. those who only read my blog may find yesterday boring. but hee hee, it was funny, hee hee. not very nice to put down what i have done to my friend here though. hee hee. yesterday was a FUN day! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! thanks for the fun day! hee hee. and sorry for all the tortures. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Sunday, October 22, 2006
10/22/2006 05:22:00 pm
yesterday was a saturday. and as pernormal. its my day out again. hee hee. well tuition was been postponed last mintue. but tat leaves me more time to sleep. hee hee. slept till 1 plus before i wake up for my alarm was ringing. hee hee. pathetic right. still need alarm to wake me up at 1 pm. hee hee. wake up shower and eat. get prepare for the outing in the day later.
my friend was early again. hee hee. and is proud of been earlier than me. ha ha.walk to the cathy and buy movie tickets. then walk down to suntec. trying to find the keroro key chain. the one tat got a button and press le got sound one. but can't seems to find it. if anyone knows where to get it please let me know thanks! got to use it and cheer my friend up. hee hee. then walk to marina square in the hope of looking for the keychain. then walk back to cathay to watch the movie "deathnote". not bad la the movie. just that is those that comes in parts one. as in the ending is not really ending lor. must probably has volume 2. first time i watch movie the ppl sitting behind keep disturbing my chair. well i am fine with it la. not very piss. cause i think the man sitting behind me got long legs la. so cannot really blame him. hee hee. the gap btw the chairs so wide liao he still manage to disturb my chair not bad liao. hee hee. quite pro. ha ha. finally this friend of mine is same as me. hee hee. like to stay and wait for everything to end. hee hee. most of my friends would chose to leave immediately after the movie ends. hee hee. not bad. got this friend who has quite a lot of similarities as me. hee hee.
movie ends le. time to think of dinner again. lol. both our stomachs are rumbling during the movie. lol. in the end we walk and walk to heeren. hang around at heeren. then later walk past old chang kee. bought snacks to eat. tot my pathetic curry puff would be my dinner liao. hee hee. we further walk down. went to the 7-11 at the paragon and buy green tea to drink. hee hee. then walk a bit more. sit down outside the paragon and rest awhile. then later walk a bit more to tangs before walking down to esplanade. hee hee. our weekly routine walk. hee hee. this friend of mine quite strong in thinking sia. hee hee. every week kanna torture by me to walk and walk and still can take it. hee hee.
we jaywalk from the tangs to wisma area. learn something new again. lol. hee hee. funny friend. i torture my friend to walk while my friend torture me to learn things. hee hee. so we walk down from wisma area to esplanade. throughout the journey i was complaining and complaining. hee hee. poor friend. every week listen to my complains. hee hee. so in the end went to long john at the cineleisure there and eat our dinner. hee hee. thanks for the treat! hee hee. will treat u back the next time. remember our argreement. ha ha. almost write out the contract. hee hee. so after having the meal we continue with our walk down to the esplanade. hee hee. throughout the journey got a few very funny things. hee hee. feeling high? not really lor. my face didn't go red. its the fault of the traffic light. hee hee.
me not feeling very well though. dunno well my knees feel weak. predict i will fall sick soon. hee hee. but i can't fall sick sia. if not how to give tuition and earn that tiny weeny bit of income. hee hee. the stubborn me still insist on walking till esplanade. hee hee. went there sit and chat for a short while. then got to let my friend catch the last train liao. hee hee. wrong prediction of the last train time again. hee hee. tot is 11:45pm. heee hee. but well as per normal i reach home before 12. hee hee. shower slack then watch a bit of the tv program. then come online for a very short while then off to bed le. hee hee. can't sleep sia. was semi conscious till 4 plus am going to 5. realise my phone was not off. so off it and saw the time was like 4:48am. dotss.... i am losing sleep again. hee hee. today wake up at around 1. cos nothing to do. so just slp and slp lor. wake up and the whole house was left with me and me alone. feeling hungry. so cook instant noodles and eat. slack. eat fruits. then later eat biscuits. slack. mum come home. nag and nag. for goodness sake. i am reaching 18 soon. i know how to take care of myself. is not like i skip my lunch or wat lor. i got cook instant noodles and eat ma. nag and nag. got on my nerves. never had much patient with my family members. the close u are to them the more u take them for granted. tats wat happen in my case.
not much program to watch on tv. channel was showing all in again. so i just watch lor. just realise the save the last dance for me lead actor act in the drama too. no wonder i find him quite familiar. hee hee. the drama is still as nice as ever. hee hee.
the drama finish at 4. nothing to watch anymore. so come online and check my mail. the inbox was flooded. hee hee. took some time to clear everything. hee hee. it's not easy maintaining two msn account. hee hee. now got to go and do more slacking again. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
10/22/2006 05:13:00 pm
hmmm... if i were to really disappear from this world one day would anyone of my friends out there realise it? i doubt so. maybe he will. called me on that day and realise the line was no longer in use. other than him would anyone realise my pressence is gone or not? hmmm i dun think so. even if i am disappear from this world no one in this world would realise it. maybe they will realise it. but that would be days later. when they need me but can't seems to find me. when ppl start to ask where i am then they realise i am gone for good. basically me been present in this world or not makes no difference at all. and no one would really care. would they? would they really be bother whether i am still living on this earth or not? doubt so.
"i will send u all the group photos tat have ur face in it." tats wat she said. when i receive the photos most of them are just them. no one seems to realise or bother about my absence in the photos. they dun even notice it. and i dun bother to tell them either.
i am just some insignificant living thing on this earth. an useless and insignificant creature. well tats my life. ha ha. gotten used to it le. not the type who is very socialable. heehee.
hmmm y do i suddenly talk about such things again. lol.
no worries i wun disappear from this earth yet. for i know i am not so insignificant to him bah. hee hee. at least i still got friend to chat to everyday and go out weekly. at least someone bother to call me everynight and chat with me on the phone. hee hee. tats enough le. hee hee. i dun ask for much in life. but its always the most simple things in life tat is the hardest to achieve. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Thursday, October 19, 2006
10/19/2006 08:20:00 am
to further add on to yesterday thingy. the day before entry is just feelings. we all have the rights to feel wat we wanna feel. basically tats how i feel during tat time. it may not be the truth. but tats how i feel thru incidents and things tat has happen. ppl who really knows me knows who i am and wat i am.
well yesterday i went to vivocity again. hee hee. this time round i went with lj. hee hee. the two of us got giddy in the shopping mall. most probably due to the structure and shape of the building and maybe becos the fact tat we are looking for some particular shops so have to keep going round and round. hee hee. we had long john for lunch. hee hee. then we just hang around. went to see perfume. then shop in topshop then adidas then look for nike shop. then went to harbour front more than words before going back to school again. i think i got the giddy feeling the most. even when i was sitting on the bus on my way back to school i still feel giddy. hee hee. old liao la. tats y. hee hee.
got back to school for the event. so crappy. basically there is nothing for us to do at all. so just slack around and help out only when there is things for us to help out. had some fun with the guy operating a candy shop at level 1. hee hee. didn't know he actually can hear wat i was saying at second level. hee hee.
i slack around until 5 plus before making my way to meet uncle j. and once again i was left stranded at the bus stop waiting for him. thinki wait close to an hour. saw a lot of army guys surrounding me. they sort of flooded the bus stop. theres quite a lot of camps over there bah judging from the amount of army guys there is at the bus stop.
got home quite late had irregular meals. dun even know is my dinner or not. hee hee. do the same old things at home. then chat on the phone then go sleep.
now in a lesson. tutor trying to "counsel" us. but we are not the one been late lor. if not we will not be here liao. hee hee. i was the first to reach today lor.hee hee.
just now blur me. left my dear dear in the washroom. run back down to retrive it before i lost my dear dear for good. if i did lost my dear dear now i would also lost my only reliance.
feeling tire and eyes feels dry now...
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
10/18/2006 09:45:00 am
i know the post yesterday is gonna cause a lotof displeasures. and a lot would feel offended. however not much ppl read my blog anyway. hee hee. i think no one reads it anymore le. well watever i type yesterday was just pure grumbles. those who knows me should know tat i am forever grumbling and dun mean anything. i dun really take it to heart. just that i like to grumble tats all. shall update again later if i have access to the com.
yesterday had a nice time with justin and benjamin.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
10/17/2006 05:28:00 pm
in a while time i got to go and get myself prepare for the imf appreciation dinner. i am in a very messy state now. my heart is in a mess. and my mind is also in a mess. i dunno wat the hell i am thinking. and why the hell i am thinking of all these things. i am just not been me. but who is the real me? have i ever been the real me? do i know who am i? why am i still holding on to it? i tot i am suppose to have let go? i tot i had let go. i tot i know the meaning of friends. i tot i know who really are and who really are not? so wat am i holding on to? i dunno.
ain't i suppose to get use to been a subsitute. they like they call me and ask me out. they dun like just chuck me aside? i tot i am been used to that. and are aware of wat type and kind of ppl they are? they are all so facade. so why the hell am i feeling all these feelings i have now? i have got friend who ask me out weekly too. so y should i bother myself with them? y? y? y? i dunno. seriously i dunno. dunno wat crap i am holding on to anymore.
isn't tats wat my life is? forever be the substitute.
ahh i can't manage to woo her. nvm i can woo scor.
ahh my friend can't go out with me today. nvm just ask scor.
ahh they are not free to have meals with me today. nvm just ask scor.
ahh today she's not free to listen to my problems. nvm just call scor.
ahh i dun wanna be alone. nvm just ask scor to accompany me.
ahh she got herself a new gang. nvm ask scor.
isn't that wats my life is all about. been the substitute...
who really did care about my feelings...
yes they did only when they know i am going to end my life and they gonna lose this easy-to-get substitute forever.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Sunday, October 15, 2006
10/15/2006 04:18:00 pm
yesterday went to teach tuition again. hee hee. one more month left for me only. hee hee. soon her olevels would be over and i will have to search for a new job again. hee hee. her paper on is on the 3rd of nov i think. can't really remember. only noe the 1st of nov which is a wed i got to go her house and give tution. her paper 2 which is also the last paper for maths is on the 10 of nov. maybe going on the thursday to give her tuition. see how first lor. cos thursday timing a bit weird leh. after tat i would be out of job. hee hee.
hmmm.... would my sat still be as interesting as now once the tuition ends? hee hee.
it was a fun day yesterday. well basically my weekend has become very interesting recently. hee hee. teach tution then go out and chill. hee hee.
took 65 yesterday. the uncle drives very slow. and the bus keep getting stuck in traffic jam. if not is the bus stop at almost all the traffic lights. hee hee. so in the end i was late. hee hee. didn't know the bus dun stop at that stop. hee hee. so had to walk another extra long distance. hee hee. went there to shop. basically is not i shop la. hee hee. my current financial status dun allow me to shop yet. hee hee. thinking of buying a new jacket. either an adidas jacket or nike one. either one would be fine. hee hee. maybe the nike one bah. can't think of anything tat i own is from nike one. hee hee. however i feel like buying a men's jacket tow ear instead. hee hee. i know very ah siao. hee hee. but then men's one seems bigger and more comfy to wear leh. hee hee. but still the purchase of jacket would have to wait until next year bah. or wait till all my friends return back all my money. hee hee. so till then i still have time to consider wat i wanna buy. hee hee. still thinking whether to buy the piglet speaker or not. hee hee.
went to see the skinny snowman. hee hee. the skinny snowman hasn't melt yet. hee hee. well yesterday was a fun day out. hee hee. looks more like a proper outing le. hee hee. had a very filling dinner. hee hee. the food is nice. hee hee. my friend didn't bought as much stuffs as expected though. hee hee. but the sword. hee hee. fun sword. hee hee. keep kanna poke by the sword. lol. but its a fun sword though. hee hee. luckily didn't kanna mistaken as terrorist. hee hee. walk with the sword around the town area. hee hee. ha ha. so fun la the sword. now i know y my friend insisted on buying it. hee hee. and then end the outing with "endless walk" then sit down somewhere and chat. hee hee. got home quite late. hee hee. but still as per normal. like a cinderalla, i got home by 12. hee hee. sometimes i feel that youngster are weird. hee hee. the water looks dirty but they still soak their feet in it. but tats youngster bah. just do wat they like. need not care about so much. if only i was like them. do wat i want and dun care about anything. but i can't la. hee hee. the expectation that i am shouldering is too great for me to do things without thinking much. hee hee. well tats my life. wat to do. hee hee. but at least i know i am enjoying my life now. trying to live my live to the fullest.
yesterday got home feel a bit emo. hee hee. so chat on the phone. chat till early morning. around 5 plus am. first time i chat on the phone until i really doze off withput realising. hee hee. i am SORRY! hee hee. kanna caught by mum and was been nagged and nagged. hee hee. but who cares. just let her nag lor. used to it le ma. hee hee. didn't sleep much though. hee hee. wake up early today. cannot really sleep. hee hee it is just bu fu qi only. but pls dun worry for me. i know wat i am doing and wat i am feeling. hee hee.
today went out for a very short while to pick up my mp3. hee hee. parents went out liao. so i am home alone again. hee hee. watching the keroro videos. hee hee. dun feel like doing homework for today. maybe later in the night or tml when i get to use the com again bah. feeling hungry now. had a craving for long john sliver. hee hee.
i am very sure and very clear of my feelings. hee hee. i have really get over everything le. hee hee. seriously. i mean wat i said this time (before i went overseas till now). hee hee. no feelings means no feelings.
so dotz. i think i am slowly starting to like someone le. but i gonna block out the feeling. hee hee. for i dun wanna be hurt by love again. and i know the person i like would never like me. hee hee. like wat i have always say and believe. if u love him set him free. he would be more happy. hee hee. life is always better this way. hee hee. i dun hurt anyone and i wun hurt myself. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Thursday, October 12, 2006
10/12/2006 08:31:00 am
hee hee. quite some time since i last update. but who cares. hee hee. not much ppl reading my blog anyway. hee hee. these few days are ok. as per normal. last night sleep quite early. finally manage to sleep early. hee hee. guess i was too tire tats y. hee hee. this morning just realise my table was back to a mess like before. gonna tidy up later. but a bit run out of files for me to use liao. hee hee. got to think of some way to organise them. if not try to search for more files or share the files liao. hee hee.
having TA1 tutorial now. can't really concentrate. as pernormal. my mind is not here at all. hee hee. body is here but not the soul. hee hee.
i starting work soon liao. went back to the old job. bo bian. short of cash. so have no choice. i dun really like the job. tat time i got nightmare and fall sick becos of the job liao. hee hee. this time no choice. so just accept the job lor. got to make myself get used to doing office job. hee hee. gtg liao. cos my typing to noisy. hee hee got to use 1 finger to type to reduce the sound. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Sunday, October 08, 2006
10/08/2006 01:07:00 pm
i am now at my cousin's house updatingmy blog. hee hee. today itisnotso hazy. the sky is clear. but sadly my mind and tots are not. they are very hazy. thePSI i think has reach 400 liao. almost as hazy as the malaysia. hee hee. needed some time to get things clear. today wake up bright and early to come over to cousin's place. finally found my carpenter's album. hee hee. now in the process of uploading songs to her com and then tomy mp3. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Saturday, October 07, 2006
10/07/2006 11:33:00 pm
i just got home not long ago. my feet are aching from all the walks. hee hee. but i kinda miss the feeling. ha ha. i know i am a sadist. hee hee. it just got back some mermories with this aching. hee hee. well today wake up then went for tuition. after tat went to harbour front to meet a friend. once again tat friend is late again. haiz. as per normal. hee hee. walk to vivocity and look see. hee hee. not much shops are open yet. the place very charlie and the chocolate factory. ha ha. didn't really see things tat i wanna buy but my friend saw lots of things to buy. lol. tat place wat a sadist place. no fast food. saw long john but it is boarded up and say coming soon. hee hee. finish walking the place quite fast. so walk to h abour front for dinner. but there's a long queue at the mac. shatt. has been days since i have a proper dinner. so train down to ps. everywhere we go there are long queues. but me very hungry. we went to burger king and bought burgers. hee hee. me been someone who is raggard and someone who dun care about image just eat the burger as i walk. hee hee. walk from ps to wheel lock place. hee hee. but i dun need so long to finiah my burger. hee hee. before reach meridien i am done with my food le. hee hee. later sit outside the OG there and chatted. suggested going to wheel lock to lool at the "wacko" shop. hee hee. once reached there then i know it is actually the crumpler shop. hee hee. look walk around the place. most shop closing liao. so time to go home. tot got soccer match. hee hee. walk to the orchard mrt station due to dunno wat reason my friend didn't went in and continue to walk down to somerset mrt station. hee hee. once we reach the station we go separate ways le. hee hee. i dun feel like going home yet for i know i would be home alone. so i listen to my mp3 while i walk down. just walk and walk aimlessly. without any destination in place. hee hee. just walk and walk. i think i must be crazy. ha ha. i actually like to walk aimlessly in this kind of haze. ha ha. then later catch my bus home. now feeling very giddy. not sure if it's because of the haze or not. hee hee. my weekends are getting more and more interesting. hee hee. but my poor friend is been torture by me. hee hee. tat shall be the punishment for coming late everytime. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Thursday, October 05, 2006
10/05/2006 06:25:00 pm
there is basically nothing much happeing. as per normal lor. yesterday lesson starts at 8. reach at 8 but the classroom is so pathetic. only got li juan and shirlene and the tutor sitting inside. so dotzz. then around 815 did the rest of the ppl starts to come in. blaw tutorial is fun. i like the interaction. not bad. decided liao. blaw shall replace fa. hee hee. then went down to popular to buy textbooks and ringfile. dotzz. text books sold out. and the ringfile too ex. 3.90 still have sp logo and quality not so good. should have bought the 3.50 ringfile tat i saw at mph and times bookshop at citylink and ms. nvm. going to buy it on either sunday or saturday. on my way to the bus stop saw jane. couldn't really recognise her. hee hee. old liao. hee hee. she also quit magic club liao. hee hee. after tat took bus home and have my first meal of the day. hee hee. charge my mp3 and surf the net for a while. after tat went to have a nap cos too tire liao. hee hee. wake up at 8.30 plus. realise i haven't have my dinner. mum also forget about it. hee hee. so just eat a bit of those dishes cos need to save them for others. hee hee. today wake up feeling very hungry. hee hee. at night called denise and ask her about the vivocity thing. hee hee. ya i am going for it bah. hee hee.
after tat call n. her batt low and say call me back later. i am so damn bored. so listen to my mp3 while wait for her phone call. waited till i fall asleep. tot she wouldn't call me. and i wouldn't be surprise if she didn't call me. i am used to broken promises or should i say used to friends not mean wat they say? but well in the end she did call me. hee hee. so chat with her. purposely disturb her. told her if she's going then i am not going. hee hee. she very poor thing sia. i feel tire for her. haiz. lets just hope tat sat would come earlier and everything would be fine again.i think i am addicted to chatting on the phone everynight. hee hee.today almost the same thing. i purposely go slightly later liao. but still the class is like small cat one two three. hee hee. sian. dunno wat the tutor talking about. so as pernormal i do my own stuffs. ha ha. cos lab lesson ma. so i have a lot of things for me to do. hee hee. after that is ma2 tutorial. tried my very best to listen to wat the tutor is talking about liao. but occassionally i will still drift off. hee hee. cocaine stood me up today. she better not stood us up again on monday or be late. or i am gonna screw her. hee hee. have breakfast. then went down to buy textbook with li juan. reach there and realise the textbooks are out again. so ask them to reserve for us. went back to sb. halfway thru. to be exact, at the foot of the hill she called me and say the books are here le. LOL. luckily she didn't call when i am already in the process of climbing the hill. ha ha. i will die of faigtue sia. so we went back to purchase the books. hee hee. then got back up again. ha ha. so tire. hee hee. li juan say go fc6 to find shirlene. but i dun wanna climb again. cos next lesson is in 10 mins time and is at mlt8. but in the end i gave in and accompany her up. today lecture is ok lor. but still have the disciplinary checks. dotzz lor. so bo liao. and of course i have nothing to fear. hee hee. given my conservative thinking and auntie dressing there it is immpossible tat i would break their rules of mini skirts or short shorts. ha ha. yes tats wat they say, short shorts. ha ha. so i am safe. and i bring my lanyard everywhere. hee hee. even when i go out lor. so if they want landyard i have landyard. they want auntie dressing i have tat too. hee hee. so no worries. jsut tat very waste time lor. they might as well come in during ff lecture. kanna sai come in blaw lecture. idiot. tats a fun lecture lor. kanna sai.every ends and i got home. have lunch. feeling very hungry so ate quite a lot. hee hee.dun think i will sleep early tonight. i am used to sleeping late le. last night can't even sleep keep having nightmares. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
10/04/2006 08:46:00 pm
well these few days seems normal to me. nothing special. hee hee.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Monday, October 02, 2006
10/02/2006 03:13:00 pm
sunday went to city hall and pick up my yanzi album. the album is quite big. comes with 4 cd and 1 bonus dvd. after tat came home. so basically spent most of my time at home. glad tat i bought a mp3. really keep me company. hee hee. still in the midst of analysing it. hee hee. gonna bother big bro for help soon. ha ha. the mp3 quite nice but seems to be very lag leh. hee hee. so far now i got 200 plus songs inside. hee hee. gonna pass it to one of friends and transfer the songs in. hee hee.
today no school. wake up in the early afternoon and start doing my blaw tutorial. only manage to do 2 questions. the 3rd questions really dunno how to do. got demoralise. so switch back to figuring my mp3. hee hee. i am now listening to my mp3 while typing this out. weird right hee hee. no choice ma. cos just now did something stupid. hee hee. accidentally installed the window media player10. i dun like it at all. so not user friendly. eeyer. so now listen to songs on my mp3 instead. testing out the playlist thing also. the playlist is so weird la. nvm i now know tat i can just place the songs i like into a folder and chose to play the songs in tat particular folder only. hee hee. just realise it. hee hee. me very slow in technology so taking a long time to figure it out. but creative mp3 is so much better than ipod. i have an ipod shuffle at home. but no one seems to know how to use it. so it is collecting dust over there liao. creative one is so user friendly. hee hee. love it. ha ha. now i got 1 dear dear which is my hand phone and a new darling my mp3. hee hee. but tat also means i am under a bit more stress when i go out liao. ha ha. cos i am so scare i will either lost my dear dear or my new darling or both. ha ha. cos i very blur blur one. tat time tot i lost my dear dear. hee hee. i left it on the table but forget liao. ha ha. blur me. hee hee. got such a big dolphin keychain attach to it but sometimes still didn't manage to see it. ha ha. old liao. old liao. hee hee. shall end here. ha ha. today didn't learn any life skills cos didn't went out with any friends. ha ha. but i learn tat lawyers earns a lot. 200-250 per hour. ha ha.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
Sunday, October 01, 2006
10/01/2006 02:35:00 am
hee hee. today really really blur sia. ha ha. morning before i left to teach tuition it was raining. hee hee. so been someone stubborn i refuse to bring umberalla. hee hee. anyway shelter all the way through ma. tats wat i tot. got out of the house. bus 16 came first. so took it. went to parkway and transfer bus. the rain was very heavy. standing under the bus stop still kanna splash by rain. shatt. took bus 966. dunno wat got into my stupid brain. i forget to get off the bus. i forget tat i need to transfer bus again. hee hee. the bus took a turn and went up the expressway. hee hee. tats when i realise oh shit. i took the wrong bus. ha ha. call up my student and explain the situation to her hee hee. so paiseh. ha ha. got off at the next stop which is very far off. hee hee. took a very long time before i got her house. hee hee. really blur sia. hee hee.
after the tuition end i went out to meet a friend. waited for close to 2 hours. hee hee. the first time i waited so long for a friend sia. hee hee. lets see who's the next friend who will be able to break the record. ha ha. and i will break the friend's legs. hee hee. but anyway quite used to waiting for friends le la. hee hee. walk and walk around city link mall to spend my time. stay in the book shop for around half an hour. then walk into hmv spend around half an hour when my mum called me and ask me to buy my own dinner. then go and look for ex colleagues. later realise still need to wait for another half an hour plus. so i just walk to esplanade area lor. not a bad idea though. ha ha. sort of walk to there to find mermories or to refresh it? but 1 thing i know. i got no feel anymore le. hee hee. so it's good news. ha ha. about time so walk back and wait for friend. went to marina square and hang around.
marina square changed a lot. very big and crowded. walk, walk and more walk. ha ha. long time never really walk for so long le. hee hee. then walk into the creative shop. saw a 6GB mp3 going for $149 only. think and think. to buy the mp3 or to buy my nike shoes. in the end the choice was made. i bought the mp3. hee hee. now charging it. and somehow it cause my com to be very laggy. hee hee. marina square is big but not much to shop bah. hee hee. so in the end walk to suntec. hee hee. got there find a place to sit down and open the box. saw how the mp3 looks like and wat things come with it. hee hee. yes it was an impluse buy. hee hee. but dun regret about it though. hee hee. after that seems late le. saw nike staff closing shop liao. so dotz lor. not even 9 yet and they close shop liao. ha ha. then later remember i haven't had my dinner. wanted to eat long john earlier. but had a sudden craving for pickles. so wanted to eat subway. but i only know the nearest subway is at ps. a bit lazy to go down though. hee hee. later tot of eating carl's junior instead. hee hee. went down there and saw subway directly opposite it. hee hee. then later feel like going home and eat instant noodles instead, hee hee. but in the end i bought subway home to eat. walk back to raffles. cos wanted to walk my friend to the mrt station. ha ha. stay there and chatted for a short while before my friend realise i am not taking train home. hee hee. walk to me to the bus stop. so dots.. ha ha. then board the bus and got home le. hee hee. basically tats how i spend my day today. ha ha. and i know to recognise ur way around the jungle is not by tying ribbons on the trees or communicating with the trees. ha ha.
give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore
