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Scor
12th Nov 1988

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Get Married at age 21
Be a Mother at age 22

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JOY RIDE;

God Sis. nEshy. SC. liNg linG. ir3ne (riNg riNg). ducKy. EvA. li teng. kaRl. caRen. 1.73m.

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Friday, August 11, 2006
8/11/2006 11:25:00 pm

back home. went to watch the fireworks again. the fireworks was splendid. as i watch numerous tots passed through my mind. and i am starting to thinking about wat i was thinking in the morning. ppl ask me to have a talk with **** but i tot that there was no need for it. but then i know i was wrong about it. no talk was done. it got me guessing and guessing. i hate to have things left hanging. so many questions are left hanging in my brain that it is strangling me. but i know no matter how long i wait **** would never appraoch me to talk about it. ---- rather hurt me than hurt himself. ---- knows wat are those questions left hanging and prefer for the questions to left hanging in my mind. i just hate ---- for doing so.

i watch the fireworks and wish that my life would be like it. short and sweet. when it ends ppl applauds for it. bring happiness and joy to the world. brightens up the dark sky then leave the world. fireworks are beautiful for it is short. if only my life is like it short. i no longer feel joy in watching fireworks. the joy in me has gone. so does happiness. happiness has left me too. wat is left in my heart is bitterness and hatred.
nothing seems to be able to make me happy anymore. fireworks used to work but not anymore. 1st oct is approaching soon. would he still remember his promise? will i get the jokebook he promise to give me? li juan say he must have forgotten about it and would not give it to me. but now i can only say i dun hold any hope le. no hope no disappointment. think i got to believe in wat li juan says.
y wouldn't he just let me let go of everything. is he trying to prove something or to him it is some triumph that there is still a dumb girl who got fooled around by him. or is he afraid that i would let go if he had a talk to me? is he scare that i would let go? i dun and i hate him for not making things clear to me.
to those who are able to read those symbols dun tell others how to read it and wat i wrote. thanks.

give me something to believe in
cos' I don't believe in you anymore